6.08.2021

tuesday letters




Dear Emmerson,
When did you go from the chubby baby stuffed in a tutu to the sassy dancing queen, front and center? I’m not sure I signed off on this. 

Dear Arkansas, 
I love rain more than most people, but even I think this is a bit much. 

Dear McDonalds,
Why are your hash browns so good? And so not good for me? 

Dear Husband, 
I love you. Let’s get married again. Say, this weekend? 

Dear Children,
It’s currently nap time. Go. To. Bed. 

6.07.2021

our third child



“Remy” means “oar.” 

Like a pole with a flat blade, pivoting in an oar lock, used to row or steer a boat through the water. 

None of which makes any sense to her being my 3rd child... or a dog. 

6.03.2021

friday joys


rain boots all around. my handy husband. ice cream for dinner. finding a new favorite author. walls painted white. planning fancy events. dance recitals. weighted blankets. hairless cats. little free libraries. 

just BE

The past couple months have been pretty monumental in my little world. 

After some more testing, I finally feel like we’re on the right path to fighting back my depression and anxiety. 

One large step forward was changing my medication. 

While very much needed, this transition has wrecked me. 

It’s as though I’ve become captive inside my own body. 

As if someone else is pushing the buttons and controlling my triggers. 

Yet, I’m fully aware of the foreign intruder, so I’m trying my best to fight back. 

Only, with my strength alone, it’s exhausting and it’s pointless. 

But I’m reminded (again and again) that it’s not up to me and my strength alone. 

The Lord will fight for me, I need only to BE still. 

BE still and know that He is God. 

(Exodus 14:14, Psalm 46:10) 

I was brought to tears when I opened this gift from my sister. 

My reminder to BE, just BE, in the handwriting of my sweet little girl. 

Thankful that all I’m expected to do is BE still and that He will take care of my battles. 

Resting in that promise today.

6.01.2021

tuesday letters


 

Dear Summer,

Day one and you've set the bar waaaay too high. High sixties. Outside all.day.long. House projects completed. Kids playing perfectly-ish with one another. Mmmhmmm.


Dear Summer, 

Remind me of this beautiful day when it's over 100 degrees and I want to scream and cry and run around naked.


Dear Husband, 

I need some baby goats. And chickens. And a donkey. And maybe one or two highland cows. That's it.


Dear Hair,

Thank you for not falling out as we slowly become more blonde. Hang in there.


Dear Kristin Hannah, 

Girrrrrl. You know how to write some good books.