10.25.2010

"...it feels like chaos, but somehow there's peace."

Something Heavenly
Sanctus Real

It's time for healing, time to move on

It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong

There's a wave that's crashing over me
All I can do is surrender


Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there's
peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but
I'm giving in to something heavenly

Time for a milestone, time to begin again
Revaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills

So show me what it is you want from me
I give everything I surrender

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there's
peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but
I'm giving in to something heavenly

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to to release all my held back tears

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there's
peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but
I'm giving in to something heavenly


This is song has been the perfect song for my heart lately. The lyrics sound all too familar when compared to my prayers. What's crazy is that I'm not too terribly heartbroken or sad. I guess that's where the peace comes in, right in the middle of chaos. It's just that life is moving full speed ahead and I worry that too many things are being left behind.

Graduation is a mere month and a half away. It's almost been put in the shadows since I've already started my "big girl job." But, I get hit hard with the reality that there are still a million and one things on my list to finish before I can walk across that stage.
Chaos.

Speaking of "big girl job", it is an absolute blessing to have this job, make sure you hear that. But, it's beginning to be a struggle to wake up excited for the day. My heart is starting to get farther and farther away from it. I know I'm called to be here for the time being. I know He put me here for a reason...it's just starting to get cloudy. Chaos.

In the midst of all this, there's little random problems. Just small annoying tornadoes that like to come in whenever and only stay long enough to do enough damage in my day. Chaos.

To make matters worse, I've been cursed with the "gift" or worrying. Oh, I'm a pro at it! Give something! Anything! No matter how small! I'll make a mountain out of it! It's pathetic, really. Chaos.

Despite all of this...all of the negativity, all of the "tornadoes", all of the worrying...there's comfort. There's hope to hold onto. There's promises to look forward to. Peace.

There's someone watching, waiting, and longing for me to just flat out give up! To give up all my worries, my burdens, my fears, all of it! He's already made the path for me. He knows my future and it ends well! He know every need I have and is always there to supply it. Surrender.


As much as I'd like to say that since I've written all this out I've been worry-free! But, it's a constant reminder. It's a constant battle and decision to set my mind on positive things. To think on what He's brought me through and to lie in His arms and know He will never leave me.

2 comments:

  1. Well said for many of us. Thanks for posting this song. I have another friend who will be encouraged by your blog.

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  2. Thank you for your encouragement! I just needed to write out everything. I'm encouraged knowing a) it was read b) it made sense coming out of my head and c) someone else could benefit!

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